I Got The Bluez
EDITED @ 9:12pm on 2/21/2006
I don't know how in the world I forgot to mention this when I orginally published this post last night, but on top of everything else that has been bothering me, a friend and former classmate (grad school and under grad at FAMU) of mine did not show up to work on February 3, 2006 and has not been seen or heard from since! This is extremely disturbing to me (to say the least).
She is a 30 y/o black female who about 5'6 and is four months pregnant. Her name is Ali Lisha Gilmore. She and her husband are separated, but they were trying to work it out last I heard. I saw her a month ago and she is very visibly pregnant. I pray that nothing has happened to her.
If anyone knows of Ali Gilmore’s whereabouts please contact the Tallahassee Police Department at 850-891-4200 or call Crimestoppers at 850-891-HELP (4357).
For more details regarding Ali, please click here.
This past week has been a very difficult one for me. I have been so down that I did not want to even write about it.
Writing about my feelings gives me entirely too much time to focus and concentrate on them, so for the past week I’ve avoided this.
Those that know me know that I spend a great deal of time talking on the phone. Speaking with my five sisters, all of whom I am extremely close to, takes up most of that telephone time because on any given day I speak to at least 3 of them if not more and even then, sometimes we speak more than once a day. I have two that live here in town with me and the other three live in other areas through the southeast.
At any rate, I received more than my fair share of devastating news via the telephone last week. The first came the morning of Valentines Day (last Tuesday). I receive a call from one of my sisters with news that was GREAT for her. She was calling to tell me that she had just gotten a job in South Florida w/a significant salary increase. Selfishly I was less than excited. I cried and cried when I got off the phone with her.
Its not that I was not happy for her because this is a wonderful opportunity, it’s that I cannot believe that after all these years she is moving 5 hours away from me. She is like my ‘ride or die’ sister. That someone that I can always count on to be there for me and now she is leaving.
What am I going to do without her?
My feelings are mixed because I'm happy for her, but sad for me ;-(
People who know me, know how crazy I am about my sisters. I can’t even express to you how much I am going to miss her and how sad I am about this. I knew that she would not live here forever, but I guess I was just not ready to hear her say that she was leaving. But on the other hand, would I ever be?
Later that same day, I received a call from one of my other sisters telling me that my cousin has just found out that they have cancer. This was the icing on the crumbling cake.
After all of that, I consider this past Valentines Day the worst ever. Needless to say, I was in no mood to celebrate!
On this past Thursday I received another call. This time the person that I am seeing called to tell me that his sister was in the hospital because she had just had an aneurysm.
I thought to myself, “WTF else is going to go wrong”?
Man, I have truly had the blues. In addition to all of that, my dissertation chair will not return my phone calls or my emails. I have been trying to get in touch with him for a month and I’ve had no luck! I was rushing to finish my PowerPoint presentation so that I could defend my proposal. Now that I have I can’t even get him to schedule it. That has me very discouraged about school.
Then my diet and exercise program has been a complete bust!!!
I have not lost a fricking ounce (all my fault) and I have not been keeping up with my exercise. I know that the exercise will help with my mood, but I have been in such a slump lately, I don’t have the energy or drive to get it done.
I’m telling you, it sucks to be me!!!
36 Comments:
And yeah, get better before you get more corny jokes... lol
M-Dubb I wish I was near St. Pete. Shoot, my sister will be moving near that area. I need a drinking buddy/movie buddy to (especially now)!!!
~Deb
A little girl was asked to spell the work Nachos. She spelled it correctly N-a-c-h-o-s. She was then asked to use it in a sentence. She said "These are nachos shoes they're mine"...LOL. No joke sucks worse than that one.
I don't have much advice, because I'm in the dumps myself. At least you have a clue why. Here's a ((((hug)))). I'm coming to Florida next week, but I'll be in St. Pete!
Hey Nic, a man walks into a bar.........Ouch!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAHAHAHA!
Doesn't get no cornier than that!
XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX
:-D
*smooches*
Chocolate Drop
*I got nothing just wanted you to smile*
Thinking bout you :)
You've got a job, a man who loves you, health, a sister (s) to actually care about, a place to sleep, food on the table, family to actually care about and a support system for times such as this.
Compare this with a lot of people, who are without a few of those things or ALL of those things.
I know when I do that it helps me realize taht no matter how bad it is for me, it's prolly 18x worse for someone right down the street.
that's just me though...
Your sis may be moving 5 hours away but it aint nuttin Ma Bell and the friendly skies can't handle. Be happy for your sis and share her joy. Just think of it this way, now you have some place new to visit when you need a vacation. (smile)
I know first hand how difficult it is for a family dealing with cancer. It's ok to cry, shoot cry as much as you want. But also know that the person is relying on you for strength. My grandma's strength and bubbly personality is what allowed her to stay with us for 10 more years AFTER her diagnosis, and those were the best years of her life that I can remember.
Pray for your "future sister in-law's" speedy recovery.
Perhaps your dissertation chair needs a personal house call. I'm with Mwabi, don't make us hafta come ova there! You know we got yo back!
Get betta sis. We luv you!
You'll be just fine, hon!
Lady Nay thanks! You are too crazy!
Stone thanks so much!
Trina that’s sweet. Thank you.
ShawnMonique thank you so much!
Accomplice yes call me or I’ll call you. Happy Early Birthday to you. Tomorrow is your big day!!!
Luvin Me I hope that it gets better to. Thanks!
MzNewAgenda thanks! I’ll be sure to check it in a few.
Miss A I hope that I pass this test with flying colors. AND VERY SOON!
Chocolate Drop that’s good that you are feeling better. Thanks!
Mwabi thanks and you did make me smile!
Rell you are right. I have so much to be thankful for and I am truly blessed. It just gets hard sometimes. Thanks for putting it into perspective.
Insanelysane you are absolutely right, cause it could certainly be a lot worse. Like you said, she is alive and well so I need to cherish the blessing!
Nay Nay I will be so glad when my storm is over, but I know that he WILL bring me through it.
Singlemom thanks for the kind words. I do appreciate it! That is a wonderful thought that now I will have a new place to visit when I need a vacation (smile). If that dissertation chair keeping messing with me he WILL BE GETTING AN UNANNOUNCED HOUSE CALL!!!
Cool AC thanks. You’re right, there is a brighter side to all of this.
LadyLee Thanks! What you said is true. I have a lot to be VERY thankful for.
Peace
Bk
I am down as well.
The name of the song by Yolanda Adams is "Never Give Up".
that said, everyone gets down sometimes. the key is to make sure you get up.
She is in my thoughts. This should be getting national attention like the Laci's of the world...don't get me started.
Smile :)
cliche'd tho it is, somehow it always works out.
We keep living, we smile, we laugh, we hurt, we heal.
Be encouraged (even tho I'm late)
I'm trying to stay positive and think about all the blessing that I have, but it is so hard to think positive when you are not happy.
I'm having my ups and downs, but I'm definitely working on feeling better.
The police still have no leads on the disappearance of Ali and now they suspect foul play. That just really hurts me to think that something awful may have happed to her.
Bad news does come in three's.
I know you just want what is best for your sister. But it is still hard.
Have they heard anything about your co-worker??? SAD!
tj
Here's a joke for you.
An 80 year old woman was arrested for shoplifting. When she went before the judge he asked her, "What did you steal?"
She replied: "A can of peaches."
The judge asked her why she had stolen them and she replied that she was hungry. The judge then asked her how many peaches were in the can.
She replied, "Six."
The judge then said, "I will give you six days in jail then."
Before the judge could actually pronounce the punishment the woman's husband spoke up and asked the judge if he could say something.
The judge said, "What is it?"
The husband said, "She also stole a can of peas."
Cheer up or I'll be back with more corny jokes.