"N" Search of Ecstasy

Can you believe it?

I have posted to my blog 100 times and had over 13,000 visitors since joining the blogosphere in October of 2005.

It took me quite a while to start my own blog. It was something that I was very curious about and really wanted to do, but I never took the time to create one because I thought that it would be too hard to create and maintain.

Now that I have it, I don’t remember how I spent my internet time before. I’ve always been an internet junky, but what was surfing obsession before I started blogging (smile)?

Whether you read my blog regularly, occasionally, or even if you are here for the first time, I thank you.

I’m sending BIG SHOUTS OUT to all of the readers that have made me feel special by gracing me with their presence on my blog. Thanks for the funny stories, words of wisdom, encouragement, laughing with me, crying with me, and loving me just for me!

Meljoy

This past week has been a very difficult one for me. I have been so down that I did not want to even write about it.

Writing about my feelings gives me entirely too much time to focus and concentrate on them, so for the past week I’ve avoided this.

Those that know me know that I spend a great deal of time talking on the phone. Speaking with my five sisters, all of whom I am extremely close to, takes up most of that telephone time because on any given day I speak to at least 3 of them if not more and even then, sometimes we speak more than once a day. I have two that live here in town with me and the other three live in other areas through the southeast.

At any rate, I received more than my fair share of devastating news via the telephone last week. The first came the morning of Valentines Day (last Tuesday). I receive a call from one of my sisters with news that was GREAT for her. She was calling to tell me that she had just gotten a job in South Florida w/a significant salary increase. Selfishly I was less than excited. I cried and cried when I got off the phone with her.

Its not that I was not happy for her because this is a wonderful opportunity, it’s that I cannot believe that after all these years she is moving 5 hours away from me. She is like my ‘ride or die’ sister. That someone that I can always count on to be there for me and now she is leaving.

What am I going to do without her?

My feelings are mixed because I'm happy for her, but sad for me ;-(

People who know me, know how crazy I am about my sisters. I can’t even express to you how much I am going to miss her and how sad I am about this. I knew that she would not live here forever, but I guess I was just not ready to hear her say that she was leaving. But on the other hand, would I ever be?

Later that same day, I received a call from one of my other sisters telling me that my cousin has just found out that they have cancer. This was the icing on the crumbling cake.

After all of that, I consider this past Valentines Day the worst ever. Needless to say, I was in no mood to celebrate!

On this past Thursday I received another call. This time the person that I am seeing called to tell me that his sister was in the hospital because she had just had an aneurysm.

I thought to myself, “WTF else is going to go wrong”?

Man, I have truly had the blues. In addition to all of that, my dissertation chair will not return my phone calls or my emails. I have been trying to get in touch with him for a month and I’ve had no luck! I was rushing to finish my PowerPoint presentation so that I could defend my proposal. Now that I have I can’t even get him to schedule it. That has me very discouraged about school.

Then my diet and exercise program has been a complete bust!!!

I have not lost a fricking ounce (all my fault) and I have not been keeping up with my exercise. I know that the exercise will help with my mood, but I have been in such a slump lately, I don’t have the energy or drive to get it done.

I’m telling you, it sucks to be me!!!

Do you watch these shows?

I absolutely love both of them. They help me to make it through my Sunday night blues. On Sundays, I always get depressed at the thought of going back to work. Its just something about watching these two shows that helps me to make it.

I know it sounds crazy, but trust me it works for me. On Sunday night, just give me a glass of wine and these two ABC hits and I am oh-tay!



Not to mention, this little hottie Isaiah Washington. He plays on Grey’s Anatomy.

~Sigh~



I’m so in love *giggles*


I have been infatuated w/this man since the very first movie I saw him play in.

James Pickens Jr., Chandra Wilson, Justin Chambers, Katherine Heigl, T.R. Knight, Sandra Oh, Ellen Pompeo, Isaiah Washington and Patrick Dempsey
ABC's Grey's Anatomy

Marcia Cross, Eva Longoria and Nicollette Sheridan

Alfre Woodard, Teri Hatcher, Brenda Strong and Felicity Huffman
ABC's Desperate Housewives

On those nights when you don't feel like going to work the next day, especially after being off for a few days, tell me what is it that helps to make it just a little bit easier?

This is Superstar Nic

Still "N" Search of Ecstasy and I'm out!

"If you see someone without a smile today, give them one of yours!"

The scenes from the tape outraged his parents and it outrages me as well. His mother said it proved the guards killed her son, despite a medical examiner's ruling that Anderson died from internal bleeding unrelated to the confrontation. That's bullshyt!

Siebert (the medical examiner) said Anderson suffered internal bleeding because he had sickle cell trait, a disorder that caused his red blood cells to change shape and produce "a whole cascade of events" that led to hemorrhaging.

"It was a natural death," he said.

Florida Sen. Frederica Wilson, D-Miami, above, speaks at a news conference regarding the death of 14-year-old Martin Anderson, shown in photos at left, Wednesday, Feb. 15, 2006.

This is a still shot from the video.

Resources for Additional Information on Sickle Cell Trait:

Harvard University: Information on Sickle Cell Trait

Health Conditions and Blood Disorders

St. Jude: Sickle Cell Trait

This is Superstar Nic

"N" Search of Ecstasy and I'm out!

"If you see someone without a smile today, give them one of yours!"

"February Mess of The Month"

Now I don't know which one of her girls told her this non-matching shyt was the bomb, but they need to be ashamed of themselves.

Why is it that people don't tell their friend how fucked up they look before they leave the house?

Look at the leopard socks...that shyt round her neck/that shyt round her waist.

No comment! This shyt is ridiculous!

Okay, I guess this is supposed to be a cute pose.

Why in the hell?

What's up with that damn cane?

What possessed them to do this pose?

More mess!

Quadruple mess!

Why is the girl with the hot pink on got her leg up in the damn air!?!

No Comment!

Please caption what these two are thinking?

Is Puffy ashamed of his mom at all I wonder?

NO!

Check out home girl trying to be sexy with her tongue all hanging out and shyt.

He's saying "yeah I know you want me"

This is Superstar Nic

"N" Search of Ecstasy and I'm out!

"If you see someone without a smile today, give them one of yours!"

In order from left to right, the hearts say, "Go Fuck Yourself", "I Lied", "Dumping You on the 15th", "You Suck", "Don't Call Me Anymore", "UR A HO".

Valentine's Day can wreak havoc on the lives of both single and married people alike! It's a ritual that calls attention to who loves whom, who is loved and those who aren't can feel singled out. It drives me crazy.

For those who are single, the day is not usually the favorite holiday of year. All of those red hearts booming with no one for them to give one to or to give them one either. All of those blissful couples flaunting their shared happiness. Valentine's Day reminds them of what they haven't got, a partner and a loving relationship.

For those in relationships or those that are married, it can upset a happy home. In those relationships in which both do not feel equally excited by this special, one person in the relationship may end up disappointed. The wife/girlfriend is sitting and waiting on that romantic gesture that will never come to past. Every now and then it is the husband/boyfriend that goes over and beyond that call of duty and his significant other is no where near appreciative. That would be enough to piss me off.

As for me, I enjoy a cute teddy bear, flowers, and candy as much as anyone could, but over the years I’ve learned not to expect it. I would be lying if I said that I wouldn’t be thrilled to be surprised something romantic tomorrow, but if I don’t get that I would not be surprised. The person I’m seeing is …. well I don’t even know how to explain it really. He just does not think things like Valentines Day are any big deal and he is not alone. A lot of people don’t. He already got me some candy (that I’ve already opened and started scarfing down) and I may get a card or something. Anything above that would be like icing on a cake.

For me, it’s more important to be treated like a queen every day and to get those special surprises all throughout the year and not just on Valentines Day. I want to get those flowers for no special reason at all, not just because he feels obligated to get me something because it’s Valentines Day. It is not about how much money is spent, it’s about how much I feel loved, wanted, and appreciated.

I have no special plans tomorrow. We’ll spend time together and do what we normally do I guess, who knows. Whatever it is will be all good for me! I'm not hard to please.

By the way, I don’t really hate Valentine’s Day! LOL….I just wanted to catch everyone’s attention. I hope everyone gets all their romantic hearts desire tomorrow and every day.

Take care,
~Nic



Play "Kill Cupid

This is Superstar Nic

"N" Search of Ecstasy and I'm out!

"If you see someone without a smile today, give them one of yours!"

By the way, I wanna lighten my hair to that color in about two weeks. I wonder what it would look like on me? I have some hightlights now, so my hair is lighter than it is on my profile pic, but not nearly as lite as Monica's hair here. Her hair (both style and color) is absolutely beautiful.

If my stylist is reading this post, please keep this pic in mind for my next appointment please.

Now I know that I'm late with this and all, but I'm still gonna post some of the pics from her B-Day bash on December 28, 2005. just in case some of you have not seen them and just cause I want to. I love posting pics in case you haven't noticed (smile).

This is Monica and her fiancé.

Very interesting party! Hmmmmmmm.....

I see Monica has a nice fat tattoo of her man's name on her leg to. Okay, moving on!



Wingo and Juvenile

Just having a good ass time!

Monica, T.I. & Rock

This is Superstar Nic

"N" Search of Ecstasy and I'm out!

"If you see someone without a smile today, give them one of yours!"